I've had a horrible 2 weeks. Cody and I are not together. Thank god. I do like someone I work with. We've been talking alot. I've been drinking again, and smoking. I've been smoking weed...popping pills. The works. I'm becoming a fuck up again. Only this time I don't have charles. He's done with me. Kevin is starting to worry about me. Oh god please don't let me do this again. I fucked up with my parents. I want to cut, but I can't. I work with Kevin tonight. I told him he and I needed to have a talk. Cause he wants me to open up to him. But I need to find out if I truely and fully trust him yet. I mean I think I do I just don't know yet. I like him yes... Fuck this shit... I'm done.